Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Faith and Fishing

To say that our lives lately have been chaotic could be an understatement. I'm not ready to share a lot of details, but trust me my prayer list for my myself, family, and friends is enough to make anyone weary. In the midst of it, I keep on with "one thing at a time" as Chris reminds me, and God helps me along the way. I seriously do not know how people live their life without the Lord. I can look back when I was making my own decisions, conclusions, and assumptions- I was anxious, unhappy, and unfulfilled! However, right now there are two things that I have to consistently keep in mind, because of God's grace that is not the way for me anymore.
                 1. Don't Worry
           2. Have Faith 

In my last ladies Bible study, we were given a piece of paper before hand that asked us to fill in the sentence: "I am weary because..." Someone must have known I would need the next three lines to fill in my "weariness". I took the time to ponder and had ranted in my head, then I just wanted to cry, and then I made a sincere list. (All while the sweet ladies around me were laughing and sharing about their lives- I just wasn't in that place that night.) I am weary because... I have 2/3 kids to tend to a day; cooking, cleaning; weary of praying for our house to sell; finances; trying to do good, pray for the right things, be a good friend, put others first. The opening sentence from our leader struck me and turned my attitude around "But what strength we have in Him!" After the meeting, I met with a friend over cheese fries and asked, "What is wrong with me? Why can't I just not worry, enjoy where God has placed me, and have faith not in myself but Him?" Her response, "Nothing is wrong with you but you simply just have to 'not worry'." So, I came to this definition for the phrase, Do Not Worry: Don't think about it, don't act on it. {Matthew 6:34 "Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof."} What is happening today is where your attention should be. Planning for the next day is different than worrying about it- find that balanced ground that works best for you. There is enough "evil" for today! Why bring more troubles into the day by worrying about what is in the future.

Worry and faith go hand in hand. To me, the best scripture to memorize and run through your head at times when your faith is lacking "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." Proverbs 3:5 Simply put, we will not always understand what may be happening around us or what God is asking of us. BUT  it's not our place to understand- we are called to trust... have faith. God must know by now that I'm just silly- I have friends tell me that often enough. I also get in these sarcastic moods when things just aren't going my way, so I mock the situation. For example the other day I woke up worrying about this and that, not having faith in anything but the cup of coffee I was pouring myself, when I started singing, "I just gotta have faith even though I have no faith. Faith is nowhere to be found. But I gotta find it and have it...!" Dallas starts laughing saying, "Mommy that's silly!" So he got his guitar and started singing along. That little jingle has gotten me through balancing the checkbook, paying bills, long days, tough conversations, and my own stubbornness.

One last thing to share- I know I brag on my husband a lot, but he is so often exactly what I need! I sent him this text a couple of weeks ago:
 I know "God is bigger"- I've seen it happen in my life before 
{in miraclous ways}- seems like forever ago. 
And still today in others' lives. 
But I'd really just like for Him to take control for once lately. 
Transparency is what that text is. It is so important to share your heart with your husband! It has done great things in mine and Chris' lives when we are just completely honest. If I had not been the day I sent that text, then most likely I would have festered to the point of resembling an angry firecracker when he walked through the door from work. His response:
We definitely need HIm to show up. 
I know it feels like everything is just on a non-stop course of confusion and chaos.
There is order somewhere, and God will get us through this. 

I can't leave you without sharing some pictures from our night of fishing last evening.

This was always mine and Chris' "spot" when we were dating. We would back
up his 4Runner to the water, about a quarter of a mile on red clay, just so 
we could sit on the tailgate with our feet in the water. 
I secretly dislike that the Nature Trail now starts here, so it can get crowded. 
However, we did find that 2 rambunctious kids can run off other fishers. 

Lillie-Mae is perhaps the happiest baby I have ever met when she is outside. 

 "Daddy, I think I caught something!" 
"Yep, you caught the bottom of the creek." 

Such a big boy. 

My little baby sitting on my baby bump. It's the sweetest thing when the baby 
kicks Lillie-Mae, she will look down and start whacking back at my belly. 

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Hall Bath- Idea Board

I am so excited to finally be working- quickly- on our new house! The plumber and electrician have come and gone. Most demolition is completed. Now I need to find a handy drywall man to fix the holes and sheetrock over the cinderblock basement. Thankfully, I have a wonderful, selfless, project-loving Daddy that happens to love me his grandson enough to help out. Chris has been working right alongside him, and it has been nice to see the two of them building and finishing our new home.

Somehow the first room I am starting with the most overhaul in is the hall bath. The hall bath of our new house will be what guests use when visiting as well as the daily bathroom for the kids. It is a galley style bathroom- a long vanity with double sinks, then a half wall backing the tub/shower and toilet area.

I am thankful for the window in the bathroom. I like light! Our home now has windows in every room, and I cannot stand a room that feels closed in. Some normal, more realistic person may see this bathroom and say, "Throw some paint on it and it's good to go!" However, we have already begun tearing out and making plans for new.

First, the vanity will be a major overhaul. Truly, it will be the focal point of the bathroom (not the shiny white toilet throne.)

Would you think to keep this yellowed, 70's vanity? Well, I see potential! We will be painting this white and distressing to allow a black background to show through. I may even keep the handles, painted of course. And yes, I'm completely serious! 

I happened on a custom granite shop that sells remnant for the price of dirt pretty much. I have seriously gotten black gold dirt for the price that it cost for our countertops. This is an example of what they look like. 

Next up, faucets! There are so many choices in the design world. Here a few tips when searching in the overwhelming selection of faucets online, search by
1. Color
2. Price "Low to High" I have fallen for too many items that are not 1/10 of what I could afford.
3. Pick the first one that makes you say, "Ahhh...!"

For me, this Moen faucet caught my eye in the sea of chrome fixtures. I prefer a single handle faucet, slightly raised with a wide base. This fit the qualifications!

Part of the beadboard has already been torn down. We will be using the leftovers to make it an accent only halfway up the wall. Oh, and it will also be painted white. You may be thinking, "Blah! White!" But, it is so crisp and clean! Exactly what a bathroom needs to be. The top of the walls may or may not be a color. I don't want to do blue. Everyone does blue. Since Chris is an artist of some sort, I'm sure he will have a great suggestion! 

The flooring will be hexagon white tiles with a dark grout. Similar to that in this picture. 

I think I will leave the rest of the details as a surprise at the big reveal of the finished bath! But let's just say, this little bathroom will have tons of details when finished! 

If you wouldn't mind praying for our current house to sell. We know God has the perfect family for our house! He has given us hope along the way, and we are remaining faithful that it will sell in His time! You can view the details in my post about it here.